Struggling with the need for acknowledgement
We all need to be acknowledged for what we are and what we do.
We, artists, even more so. And it can be so scary, too, when your entire future depends on whether or not other people like/want to buy your art; when other artists’ ‘inspirational’ success stories make you taste bile in the back of your throat because you don’t know why they got where you don’t seem to be able to, and you start to hammer yourself into the ground and tell yourself that all this lack of attention is what you deserve, because you have no right to be in this profession, an impostor, a talentless hack.
I still don’t know how to deal with days like that. They always pass in the end, and I can go back to drawing and even liking what I draw. But I am starting to realise one important thing: no amount of external affirmation will make me believe in myself unless I learn to do it on my own first.